See, wha-haa-haappened wuz…back on September 9th I went on a mission to drop 10 pounds in 30 days with no diet or fake food and no boring crap. The whole plan went straight to hell when I discovered a health problem and took action to correct it. I will spare you all the gory details but I went through a minor surgery (which didn’t seem so minor at all) at the end of September. Before that I had lost 3 pounds of fat. After, I don’t know. It looks as though I gained seven, but the doctor insists that this is water weight. I my mind I know he’s right because just the same as how the body can’t get rid of more than 1-2 pounds a week, the body can’t manufacture more than 1-2 pounds a fat per week, unless it’s a Supersize Me situation but still, I had a few resulting cookie episodes. I had to take it easy from all physical activity for 2 and a half weeks after the surgery, which kinda threw me off a little bit more.
So, here we are again. These things happen because this is real life. I’m back on the program because I want to slim down a little but also because I love the variety of foods and the exercise, well, is not just exercise. It’s all fun and games. (Yasmin unlocked some new songs on Dance Dance Revolution, woo-hoo!)
I don’t know whether I can lose 10 pounds in 30 days or not. But I know I can slim down and look fabulous in 30 days, but it might take a few more weeks to total 10 pounds, or maybe not, who knows? I’ve learned that this doesn’t matter. I was wasting energy worrying about something stupid that just causes unnecessary anxiety and a fall off the bandwagon. I decided a while ago that I am not willing to make any drastic dietary or exercise changes that I am not willing to reasonably keep up forever. However, I fully acknowledge and take into consideration that to lose weight requires that we intake less and exert more than maintaining weight does. But the difference between the two should not be drastic if I’m generally eating nutrient dense delicious foods and keeping my body moving.
The lesson learned: do the right things and skip the arbitrary deadlines and quotas. Motivation should not be found in a date on the calendar or a number on the scale, especially since the journey never ends there. I’ve found some super motivation (besides the good feeling) though. I’m dancing in a show in February. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t need to work towards a certain weight or size. The motivation is to get back down in that studio working on the most deliciously fantastic erotic tantric bellydance creation ever! Stay tuned for details, dates, invites. What’s YOUR motivation?